Thoughts of the day: Feelings. How can a person affect the way you feel? Shouldn't you be the only one in control of that? How can you go from not caring at all to caring too much? How can you be sad when there is generally nothing going wrong, and actually, everything seems to be going your way? How can you be happy when you know you aren't going to get what you want? How can you feel guilty when you didn't do anything wrong? How can you be all of these things at the same time? And how can a couple of hours change your entire view on a subject, on a person, on life? How can you be so adamant about something and with a flick of a switch, it just suddenly doesn't matter anymore. Like knowing all of the reasons you were mad but just not caring anymore. And not in the apathetic way... just letting it go. And not in the zen way... just.... it just doesn't matter. Because when it comes down to it, we're all here together, we're all part of the same thing, and aren't we all working towards the same goal? Why do we make it so difficult for each other, for ourselves? It seems like a big waste of time. Worrying is a waste of time. No matter how many times you picture something happening, it almost always turns out differently. Why do we spend so much time hypothesizing when we could just not worry about it and deal with it when it comes. This is a lesson I have to teach myself. Easier said then done.

“Don’t bother trying to explain your emotions. Live everything as intensely as you can... The best way to destroy the bridge between the visible and invisible is by trying to explain your emotions.” - Paulo Coelho, Brida

Thought that always blows my mind, especially on a day like today:

“Because they are so long lived, atoms really get around. Every atom you possess has almost certainly passed through several stars and been part of millions of organisms on its way to becoming you. We are each so atomically numerous and so vigorously recycled at death that a significant number of our atoms – up to a billion for each of us, it has been suggested – probably once belonged to Shakespeare." - Bill Bryson

Paulo Coelho's book Brida talks about this a little bit, and I can't find the quotes anywhere online. But if this is true, and I believe it is, we really are all connected. Perhaps some of us more then others. I think that is why we draw certain people into our lives at certain times. Also why we loose them. Maybe we lost the atoms that were keeping us together in the first place. Outlandish? I think it's as simple and as complicated as that.